Friday, September 14, 2007

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These are truly annoying and ever too common in my house... :(

Nothing else to say today!

*howls*

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Wednesday, September 12, 2007

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I've concluded something. That this summer, regardless of any events that may come up, I WILL GET A JOB, and I WILL take the A+ Cert tests. This means that I should be able to get a laptop by the time school starts again. I'd so take it to school every day and use it on the bus after and before school. XD Even though we're not supposed to bring our own computers, who's going to stop me, eh? Maybe I'll actually be able to build the computer I've been planning since last year. Who knows?

All I know is right now, if I got a job, I'd only be able to work weekends. That would suck, and supposing I work two full time days, that's still only 16 hrs. Not a whole lot...

Anyways, I've got to pay attention to the CDs I'm ripping. I gotta finish them up pretty soon here.

*howls*

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Saturday, September 8, 2007

  

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*stares at monitor blankly*

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*falls over sleeping*

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Wednesday, September 5, 2007

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Thanks everybody for cheering me up a little. I have overnight now to decide what's happening with my piano lessons. If I can't say that I want to go on tomorrow morning, then I'm giving it up.

But I'm afraid that I'll stop taking lessons, and then if I want to pick them up again, I'm stuck going at midnight. (Exaggeration, but you get the point.) What I think I'm going to do is work my tail off Wednesday evening and after Driver's Ed Thursday and then go to lesson at least once more. Then I can ask her what she thinks. She'll probably be just as shocked as everyone else, but if it has to be done it has to be done.

I do still feel rather bleh though. This is compounded by actual physical feelings. Tonight, I was last to get my plate for dinner, and I barely got anything. It's been like this the past few nights. I almost want to just stand up and yell I'm fucking starving here!, but that'd be kinda rude. It's not like we're poor or anything, it's just we've been buying smaller portions of meat, and that's most of what I want to eat!

People at school seem to think it's strange that I haven't had a girlfriend since freshman year. Since most of them still don't know I'm a wolf, I just tell them that I'm not interested in a relationship at this point, but the reality is that as far as I can say now, I'm never going to be interested in a relationship like that. Especially after the first two, no thanks, I'm screwy enough as it is.

Anyways, it's like midnight, and I have school tomorrow.

*howls*

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Monday, September 3, 2007

I hate this.

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I'm being like that again. You know, don't you? If you don't want to hear it, please don't.

I've got myself stuck in a bad place now. My parents were nearly ready to get me a better digital piano than I have, which would have been a really nice thing to have. That's a good thing.

But now I think I want out of piano lessons. I don't think I should keep wasting half an hour of my instructor's and my time or $20 of my dad's money every Thursday. I'm not getting anywhere, and I don't know that I can say I enjoy learning the instrument. I hate feeling like I'm going nowhere, and that's exactly what I feel like is happening.

I guess if I stop that leaves me to continue being talentless. I mean, I can't draw, play an instrument, hell, I can't even write half the time anymore. I have until Wednesday to decide before the first lesson of the season, otherwise we'll end up pre-paying for the nine months or something like that. This is such a hard decision.

I am nothing but a failure anymore.

*howls*

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Friday, August 31, 2007

AAAAHHHH!

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I've been manga-fied! I mentioned to a friend how I hadn't read any manga in a long time, and then I was half-forced half-encouraged to read the Buso Renkin series. I'm already through the first three books. I actually like it. Then after I get to the present end of that series, I'm probably going to start reading other manga! yay?

School is evil. These past few weeks and the next few as well will be atrocious because, like normal, I have piano on thursdays and papers on tuesdays. But guess what? I have driver's ed on no days other than tuesdays and thursdays. At least when it's over, then I can get a job, quit the paper route, and get a car eventually.

I need to write, but I still don't have the time and school is not really a good place to write. Too many people read over my shoulder when I write.

I have a strange project to do for Psychology. I have to go to a retail store and observe how many people buy items near the register compared to the number who don't. There's only one problem. I have to do it for one hour, and wouldn't the cashiers get a little suspicious about someone watching the customers and making tick-marks in a little booklet? That makes me wonder if I should ask the manager's permission before I do it. I mean, it couldn't hurt to ask, but it's not like I'm stealing their identity or something. But in this crazy world, I suppose you never know what is going to happen when people seem to be acting strangely. But what do you think? Should I speak to the manager before I just go doing this?

Well, it's starting to get late for my Thursday. I have to ir a acostarme, ahora mismo!

*howls*

EDIT: Tomorrow I might post excerpts from a paper I had to write for English just the other day. I liked the end I wrote. :)

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Sunday, August 26, 2007

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Ugh. I still don't want to go to school, but I have to. It's 9:45 Sunday night. I don't want to go upstairs to get ready for bed because I'm not really tired.

I can now say I've been driving in town. My dad says I actually do better in the real situation than in the empty subdivisions we'd been driving in before. I think it's because I know that if I mess up in actual traffic, I could actually die instead of only pretending to be hit by pretend cars and pretending to die. Whatever.

Well, even though I really don't want to, I need to get to bed.

*howls*

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Thursday, August 23, 2007

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The DMW...V (Department of Motorized Waiting.... and Vehicles) was actually not to bad today. I got my permit renewed, so now I can take Driver's Ed alright. Unfortunately, I still don't know how much it costs, where it is, or for how long. I think you have to pay upfront, so I don't know if I'll be allowed to start tomorrow... I still need to ask in the office about where, how long, ect.

Java is interesting. It's more helpful to start coding quickly for me because reading the logic behind the language and all the stuff it does for me is quite boring. The class is much more interesting and we've actually written a few "example" programs that just spit out garbage into a command prompt. Whoo.

Rumor has it that I might be able to get discounts on the A+ test that I have to take still. Therefore, I need to wait and see what I can find out about this.

Today, I was at Office Max with my dad and my sister, and my dad wandered off to look at something, and I was curious about Vista, so I stayed in the laptop area, messing with a HP Compaq thing. A salesperson walks up and asks if I need any help. I honestly told him it'd be months before I could afford that or any other machine they offer and explained that I was just exploring Vista and Office '07. Then I kinda mentioned how I might try to blow Vista away for XP if I bought a vista-preloaded computer. He looked at me funny, so I tried to explain that I'm an XP and backwards kind of person. He rolled his eyes and left. Weirdo. (I know he was probably thinking the same about me.)

Anyways, tomorrow is a semi-important day for me. I need to get to bed.

*howls*

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Monday, August 20, 2007

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I still think school sucks, but I know if I drop out it's not going to do me any good. I might wait after high school to go to college because of various reasons up to and including money. (Though my parents said they'd help if I went because I wanted to, not just to do it.)

School the past week had been treacherous. I had so much homework... Hopefully this is just the phase they go through where they prepare you for what may come ahead. I really want to get a job, and if I have homework like this all the time, there's no way I could possibly do that. :(

Time for some nerdiness. In slightly good news, I get some money this weekend. I'm thinking I'm going to go ahead and buy a copy of Windows XP. I might get Vista later too, but I'm highly doubtful of that. Too much money for me. Vista is a hefty $340 for Ultimate while XP is around $130 for Pro. I may go with both when Vista's price comes down from the sky, but that'll be a while.

Well, it's almost 10:45, and I have to get up at 6:30. I should get to bed now. Tomorrow is going to be a long day, and then on Thursdays, I'm going to have Drivers' Ed. Yay.

*howls*

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Ugh!

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It's late Sunday night. I don't want to go to bed because I know my alarm will wake me up and I have to go to school again. I can't tell you how excited I'll be in May 2009.

English homework sucks because I don't even know if I'm doing it right or not. I don't think I am, but beyond what I am doing, I don't know what else there is to do. :(

I STILL want money....

*howls*

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